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Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
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| Time: | 10:04.[am] |
| Mood: |  depressed. | | Music: | coal chamber- beckoned. |
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All dressed in black
Eyes of attack
Coming with one hand in pocket
To take from me
Sin in eyes I see
Sin is nice to me
Nothing left for me
Reality
Forget it
You have messed up
Can't do anything
And I have messed up
Can't do anything
You're just a fuckup
I'm just a fuckup
We're just two fuckups
At least were fucked up together
So sad to see you go
I said to myself you know
So sad to see a mind
Disappear through time
Lunacy's an argued taste
I guess there's no time to waste
Oh this time it's a passing phase
Reality
Forget it
You have messed up
Can't do anything
And I have messed up
Can't do anything
You're just a fuckup
I'm just a fuckup
We're just two fuckups
At least were fucked up together
We are two fuckups
You have messed up
Can't do anything
And I have messed up
Can't do anything
You're just a fuckup
I'm just a fuckup
We're just two fuckups
At least were fucked up together
Together, together
Together forever...on paper
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Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
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When I die I'll die with my mercy
When she cries I'll cry with her
In my life see I've loved an angel
My Mercy
My Mercy
Such a glance the softest of skin
Wax dripping so paper thin
Remember oils positions of plenty
Well this memory how it still haunts me
We are love, we are love
When I die I'll die with my mercy
And when she cries I'll cry with her
And in my life see I've loved an angel
My mercy eternal to me
We are love we are made of many
We are two we are made of few
You've taken my life and left me to blame
You'll never understand the shame
I would die for my mercy can't you see
Eternally eternally
We are love we are made of many
We are two we are made of few
We are love we are made of many
We are two we are made of few.
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Monday, December 13th, 2004
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god i miss you, push my issues to kiss you, bliss in a tissue to wish you
i cant fall back gotta stay on track..........
theres a new girl in town, tears for the frown,
another freind of mine died....that makes three this month, and then dimebag darrell...death is in the air whos next?
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Saturday, December 11th, 2004
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i know its a little late... and ive known this whole time, but i would like to dedicate an entry to dimebag darrel.
origionally from pantera, he made a side project. a crazy pantera fan sneaked into a concert, got up on stage and shot him.
got right through the guards undetected.
R.I.P. dimebag darrel....died on my birthday
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| Time: | 12:10.[pm] |
| Mood: | sore. | | Music: | avenged sevenfold. |
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i really never told alot of people but i dont care any more.
my chest has maybe seen the light of day about seven times. i dont take my shirt off.....ever.
i dont even think im fat, but i dont settle for anything less then fit.
about three years ago i was fat. i was at the skatepark and i was made fun of for it so bad it gave me the edge to lose it. i went on a strict diet and did nuthing but skate...even in 104 degree weather. i didnt get in shape, but i lost ALOT of weight.
someone thats really close to me showed me that i cannot dwell on anything. i cannot pitty my self.
the past week ive been really focused on this. usually id stop eating or sumthing. ive done nuthing but eat carbs and workout.
ims so crazy sore but in like a week itll all go away.
yesterday i went to justins and we worked out with his machines.
its gonna be a weekly thing.
**my goal is to have a chest, abs, arms, and tone****
i gotta look at this entry to set my goal...
i dont wanna be a super deisel asshole, i just need that much done to be happy.
ive never been in shape in my life. i really wanna
i was with this girl and she asked if she was cute, or hot. i told her hot, cuz she was. then i asked her....just curious. she sed hot. i truly dont belive anyone who isnt fit can be hot. i think ive got that teddy bear cute shit goin on. and i HATE that.
plus im gonna be the lead singer of a band... and were gonna be playin soon.
i need at least a little sex appeal. ANY motivation i can use to keep my mind set works.....for example....whos ever seen a chubby goth? there all bony bitches....so me being cut ain gonna work...but its better then chubby lol.
other motives** i dont hit on girls...need to look sexy to get hit on lmao
need to fit through small doors
in case ninjas attack ill be ready
when racing my car will be faster
so i can beat the shit out of anyone who ever fucked angelina jolie...and thats alot of people and im sure theres alota buff assholes
so id look good in what i wear. i have some really beautiful clothes that only look good in beautiful people lol
so i wont be made fun of
any motivation...
plus im gettin a job thats gonna make me work my ass off....hopefully literally lol.
gimme three months.....
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